I had always written things about my progress. My improvement. Been telling myself to do better in life. To act decent & demure. Because it is something I wasn't. 2 years back, I had my diva years. Yea la.. I was a model, I received lots of attention. I was sexier, braver & stupider. Huhu. Things changed when I became smarter & grown up.
I realized that what I used to do wasn't what I've been wanting. Therefore I adjusted myself. I become more serious. Perhaps I'd lost some joys. But I know it has given me more than joys. The adjustments gave me peace. Something that I didn't have when I was 19.
But however, I must confess. Thou the changes are pretty awesome, sometimes I miss those days. When I used to be braver(Not the sexy part ok). Doesn't mean I am coward now. No I'm not. It just, when I am ballistic, mad or lost my sanity, all I want to do is spit it out. But I can't. It feels like I'm breaking the promise I made to myself.
another adjustment perhaps??
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